ray ruano- week 2
This week I have dwelled on the concept of mortality and consciousness. In a past meeting, Prof Valverde mentioned she chose the life she's currently living-- I'm paraphrasing, but she mentioned that she stopped "complaining about the struggles endured because she, herself, had chosen this life. This was a new to me-- in terms of questioning why my life is the way it is and how this connects with my potential and overall outlook on life.
Do I already know how my life will continue and end in this body once I die and return as energy to reincarnate in another being but my consciousness does not know it yet or I have forgotten or I have yet to discover?
What is my destiny? Do I need to travel to the akashic records to find this out? The concept of mortality is not new to me but I am trying to understand it on a new level as I attempt to connect with my higher self. When I think of death, especially in a time like this, I am not afraid but when I think about the effect it may have on the people in my life, my feelings change.
I also think about my aunt who has been battling breast cancer for over 3 years which has now spread to her spine and most likely other parts of her body. I cry as I type this because when I think about whether we chose this life for ourselves, did my aunt choose this life for herself? The pain that it comes with it and the energy that becomes trapped in time.
I reflect my dad and when he lost his battle with cancer when it spread to his brain and deteriorated his bones. I saw his energy slowly leave his body until his last breath in 2018. I think about how cancer also took the life of my grandpa (my dad's/aunt's dad) in 2012 and how much of a bitch a disease can be. Then, I think about whether I will have cancer or my siblings. I think.
*this is a pic of me and my powerful aunt <3
Do I already know how my life will continue and end in this body once I die and return as energy to reincarnate in another being but my consciousness does not know it yet or I have forgotten or I have yet to discover?
What is my destiny? Do I need to travel to the akashic records to find this out? The concept of mortality is not new to me but I am trying to understand it on a new level as I attempt to connect with my higher self. When I think of death, especially in a time like this, I am not afraid but when I think about the effect it may have on the people in my life, my feelings change.
I also think about my aunt who has been battling breast cancer for over 3 years which has now spread to her spine and most likely other parts of her body. I cry as I type this because when I think about whether we chose this life for ourselves, did my aunt choose this life for herself? The pain that it comes with it and the energy that becomes trapped in time.
I reflect my dad and when he lost his battle with cancer when it spread to his brain and deteriorated his bones. I saw his energy slowly leave his body until his last breath in 2018. I think about how cancer also took the life of my grandpa (my dad's/aunt's dad) in 2012 and how much of a bitch a disease can be. Then, I think about whether I will have cancer or my siblings. I think.
*this is a pic of me and my powerful aunt <3
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