Andrea Gomez_ Week Two

Focusing on near death experiences this week was a familiar topic to me, as I've experienced a near death experience more than once in my life. I've drowned twice in my lifetime, both in my childhood. I've never been a strong swimmer as a result, yet I never developed a fear of water, and I feel especially calmed when around bodies of water. I am also a water sign, and my birth chart has a lot of water in it. All these things combined together could mean nothing, could mean everything, but that is completely up to the person who is looking at them. For me, a spiritual person over a religious person, there are too many common threads for these things to not mean anything to me or my life.

But concerning my near death experience, they happened when I was young enough that I don't know if my memories of the events are warped. I don't know if what I remember seeing is something that actually happened, or something that I have constructed in my mind. And while I do not posses a fear of water, or of those situations that endangered my life, I do have a fear of it happening again. The water doesn't scare me, drowning doesn't scare me, but dying does. I don't remember seeing anything when those events happened, nothing at all. And I'm afraid that there really is nothing at the end of things. I'm not looking for answers in this, I don't think this class would provide me with those answers. But I am open to looking for them.